This bible verse gets to me EVERY time. And here is why…
I was first diagnosed with MS due to loosing vision in my right eye. It took over six weeks to fully get my vision back thanks to IV steroids every day for a week and time. My Ophthalmologist is someone who I will forever be beyond thankful for that he found this disease early through my eye. Besides being a wonderful doctor, he is the absolute sweetest. I look forward to seeing him every appointment just to see how him and his family are doing.
Now this is something not too many people know. My MS has effected my eyes the most over the past 14 years of living with MS. My optic nerves in both eyes seem to not be getting better but more damaged. My vision does go blurry at times with extreme heat, stress (good and bad), when I get sick, and sometimes for no reason.
So to read, ” I will walk by faith even when I can not see, ” could possibly be my motto one day. But hopefully not soon or ever. Each time I get the news of the nerve not looking too great, I think to myself,” Well, I better enjoy what I can see while I can!” And to be honest, when I say that or think that, I get a panic in the pit of my stomach to think this is something that could happen having MS. But, it is my reality of having MS even if I do not want to admit it at times.
On the positive note of all of this (we have to see the positive, it helps get through the negative, right?), knowing in the back of my head this is a possibility, along with the many other not fun things that can happen with MS, I appreciate the moments I can see my children smile, when I can see my children grow up, when I can see my husband smile at me and his handsome face, when I can see the amazing artwork in the sky from God, and when I can just SEE everything!
Appreciate all you have and all you can do. Please. Use my story as a reminder. Life is amazing, so enjoy it!
xo
